Saturday, December 31, 2011
I have two traditions at the end of the year:
1. I write down goals and regrets and burn them
2. I write here, a number of things that have helped/affected me during the year. As it is 2011, I will write 11.
Here we go, in no particular order:
I got a permanent job. It's the first time I have holidays and gotten paid for it. It is definitely a bonus, but not the best bit about it. I am working in a school and, though there are some drawbacks, I am generally enjoying it. I got to be much more involved by being at a smaller school and am really looking forward to being more involved and have more responsibility than I would have in a large school at this stage in my career.
I got to hang out with babies. A few of them. Babies that I enjoy. People have sprogged out in great great numbers this year!
Cut price housing with a housemate. Through this, I remembered how, and really learnt how to live in others' space. I know that I did it in England, but I in most of those houses I wasn't living almost on top of anyone. Here I was. We struggled, especially because we worked together, but by the end of the school year we were chugging along ok with each other.
I exercised pretty constantly this year. Not very well, and not to a great heartrate, but I did it. I've had to stop because I am sick, but I will get back into it when that shifts.
L&J. These two ladies gave me some company this year that I will be grateful for. I know we won't be best friends, and that's OK. I was lonely for the majority of the year and these two got rid of it on occasion.
S. This man is phenomenal. I am in awe of his greatness. You know, that man at work who just does everything well and to aplomb. I learnt so much from him this year, and I am really quite upset that he is leaving next year. Not only did I learn about curriculum from him, I learnt so much about behaviour management and connecting with the students. I have changed my entire teaching way because of conversations we've had this year. Also, he showed and told me he had respect for me. He is the best supervisor I've ever - I mean, ever - had. I've had some that were very good. Some who are friends now. Some who I respect. But I don't know I will ever find a supervisor I respect quite so much again.
I started having panic attacks again. It's terrible. But it has really galvanised my need, desire and intention to be healthy as soon as possible. I've been getting help from western medicine, life coach, alternative remedies and meditation. Paying a lot for the privilige, but I really need it. I will be better!
I have paid back over $18,000 of debt. I have paid my credit card off, paid my mother off, bought my car outright off my father, paid a few thousand back to Dad, and a few thousand to the bank. It is very freeing. I will have it completely done by this time next year: $11,000 to go!
3 terrabyte hard drive - I have years of television to watch. I have watched hundreds of hours of House, Supernatural, Big Love, Smallville, Regenisis. Lots and lots of TV. I am starting to remove the shame I feel in relation to how much television I watch.
I have started to not hate Country Music. Even Taylor Swift. It's actually quite easy to listen to, learn the words and sing. And it helps that everyone in my town loves it.
The student that I fought with for the whole year was the only one who, on graduating, sought me out to shake my hand and thank me for the work I've done this year. Thanks made it all good.
So, that's my year.
My resolution for 2012 is the same one as this year: To look back and have no regrets.
This will be three-fold:
1. Exercise and eat healthily with a good mental health.
2. Work hard to help students learn and understand.
3. Be confident and love myself.
I'd love to hear some of yours!
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
On the second day of Christmas, it was Christmas Eve and I went to the traditional dinner at my Dad and Step-mother's. Lots of food and laughter (and extremely bad bad bad jokes, care of the crackers and my Dad!) My Secret Santa forgot to bring my present. Stupid sister! lol.
On the third day of Christmas, I forgot my camera! I started the day at Mum's where Santa had come to us all. I totally got the Tupperware travel set. :) My sisters and one of their partners also came. We had breakfast together and then we all went our separate ways.
I went to my Aunt and Uncle's. Lasagne is my Christmas. Wierd, I know but it is... Caught up with cousins and their families, who I haven't seen since Christmas Day last year.
Lastly, I went to my friend's house and then Redcliffe Lagoon. Then they came back to mine and we played the Heroica boardgame for a bit. :)
On the fourth day of Christmas, I hung out with my Mother, both of my sisters and one of their partners. We gave presents, then went swimming and then had lunch. Mum and I then went and bought me a laptop. I paid Mum the loan I'd taken out from her in 2005 back!
Over the four days, I had a really great time. I usually feel disappointed after Christmas, but can never say why. I get so excited about it - buying people stuff, wrapping it, hanging out with friends and family. Nothing better! But something is normally missing. This year, it wasn't. Of course, I felt the usual guilt over Mum getting 3 hours because we had to start Christmas Eve at Dad's. I also felt a little stressed at the constant changing of place on Christmas Day, but I really had a good time. Not sure what wasn't missing, but it wasn't and I'm not going to worry about it.
I hope you all had a great time with friends and family!
Monday, December 26, 2011
Sunday, December 25, 2011
Friday, December 23, 2011
I read on one of the blogs (natthefatrat.com) about wrapping presents with brown paper and doilies. I fell in love!
I spent hours at Spotlight chosing the ribbons - I tried to match the decorations with the person. I had so much fun wrapping the gifts. :-)
It did defeat the purpose of a Secret Santa though!
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
I had phone call upon phone call today. And not one could I answer!
I had an appointment in Robina, so was driving (3.5 hour return trip, blergh) and couldn't answer.
1. Television people, who I'm grateful are going to install the VAST system so we can get reception come the new year. To ring back.
2. Leasing company, who is returning my call almost two days later. Called back and then had to wait 20 minutes while the guy was found.
Ok, so 2 phone calls. Which for me is a lot.
Sunday, December 18, 2011
The nephew is being clingy and cranky. Not really a problem. It's a phase - he hasn't seen me for almost ten weeks. I understand. I'm awkward around ppl I don't really know too. :) He gave me a kiss at the end of the night and made everything ok.
The geek squad came. I am a geek/nerd too. This is a testament to my nerdiness (oh, and I got those sonic screwdrivers from my friends last night!) I enjoy geekiness and allow it in my life. But, if you are at a dinner table, you should have a conversation, not text.
To illustrate, let me draw a picture.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
After a little snooze, I made it on time, driving through the rain! With my very scratched glasses on. :) It was a good breakfast; sausages, quiche, American hash browns (yummo!) and juice.
Then I spent a few hours on the computer. One of the olds had left a youtube vid (http://youtu.be/18lsxFcDrjo) up and I watched it. Wow. My brain is scrambling to see how I might be able to use it in class - which of course, I won't because it would not fulfill requirements of legal internet use blah blah blah.
I am about to leave now to buy aforementioned Christmas present, and then go to the clothes shop that is having 50% off. In all this money-spending, I should be able to buy myself something right? Other than airfares, accommodation and a new car?
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Oh, and for $90 on top of presents, I better had!
Monday, December 12, 2011
I thought I'd just start as if I hadn't been away. So, as it is the 12th of December, and Santa is out there looking for everyone's lists, here is mine:
8. Dr 9-11 Sonic Screwdrivers